weird.

yesterday we got an e-mail from the head of our year telling us that the board would be discussing our exam today and that our exam results would be released by early next week.
this simple little e-mail seem to put me into a bit of stress. subconsciously anyway. this morning i woke up after dreaming that i had just completely bombed the exam. i was glad when i woke up and realized it was just a dream. weird eh? i didn't think too much of it cause the results weren't going to be released until monday at the earliest and i would have at least 3 more sleeps to "undo" that bad dream.

BUT...
after lectures today, to my surprise i found out via a text msg from a friend that the exam results were posted already. i freaked just a little thinking that the dream i had might be real.

the overall pass mark was 58.
the average was 69.
with a standard deviation of 7.
me? just at right about average.
i think i'm content with the mark. not ecstatic cause OBVIOUSLY i can definitely do better. but feeling also slightly relieved because the more i thought about the exam, the more i felt uneasy about it.
but i can be better than average. i know i'm better than average...

*****
ps. i'm leaning toward writing my USMLEs this winter.

pps. kudos to the school of medicine for getting our marks out so quickly.